“I, Myself, am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.”
It’s been five long years since I have posted. So many things have changed, internally and externally.
I have been faced with so many challenges and inner conflict that I find it difficult to express in words. These words are one of the only links I have to myself, anymore. I seem to have lost myself entirely. And with that, I’m still not quite sure who I am, who I want to be, or how I feel.
I want to learn how to love myself. This has been the greatest challenge of any- learning how to love who I am, and my own skin. There are things I know to be certain, and these things help me to grow the best I can. I know my worth. I know that taking what you get, and taking what you deserve, can be two very different things. And with learning that, I am teaching myself to never settle for any less than I believe I deserve. The learning curve is rough, challenging and one of the scariest things I have experienced yet- but I’m learning.
I’m still not quite sure how to arrange my words. All of these thoughts, and realizations, constantly spin around the inside of my head begging to be heard. But I still can’t seem to make sense of them. But I don’t want to waste them anymore. I have something valuable to say. If not for anyone, but for myself.
So here is my pledge. My promise to myself. I will start writing my thoughts down as to not only escape, but to maybe start to understand them. You can’t win if you never play, right?